For the past few months, I have been frozen in my writing. And that hurts. For me, writing is breath. And it has been hard to breathe. And when it is hard to breathe, it is just as hard to function.
I, like all of you, am just trying to do the best I can, with where I am at.
But, I allowed my breath to be taken away by various things and various people. And I know I had the choice, but I didn't feel I had the strength or the bandwidth to choose otherwise.
But daily... I have this tugging on my heart. I have this want, this need, this passion, this desire - to write. To share my truths...the good, the bad and especially the ugly- because those are what connects us.
I share my stories and ideas straight from my heart and from my soul. When you read my writing, I want you to know that it does not go through the "writing process.". It seeps from inside, straight to my fingers and on to this page. Often times, it even bypasses my brain (this is why I usually can remember my titles, but am extremely foggy on things I have written. )
Here is MY writing process. I feel. I write. I publish. That's it. Raw. Open. Vulnerable.
What I have learned is that living this way isn't easy. You are left wide open to get bruised, hurt and even smashed at times. I get knocked down and I let it get me down. But I choose to write for two reasons.
The first is totally selfish. When I write, it helps me to reflect, process and grow. I try not to be a selfish person, but I admittedly began writing for an audience of one and that one needs it back.
The second goes back to the quote that I use quite often from author Glennon Melton.
I have learned through experience; that this is truth. When we are authentically vulnerable in our sharing, it lays down a bridge for others to do the same. And I have bore witness to this over and over again. I have shared hugs and tears with so many. I have shared priceless moments with those who have given me the humble honor of hearing their truths.
So with that. I need to make a choice. And I know that I have to make the choice to take my breath back.
Let's see how this goes, folks....