For some reason, I have always seemed to best thrive when I am juggling many different things at once. But what I have found lately, is that the load has increased (due to my own doing) and my effeciency has appeared to decrease. I think it is time to reflect and re-evaluate my load. As my colleague would say, I need to check the "juice squeeze ratio". Is all this effort that I'm putting in, worth it? Is what I'm doing, actually making any difference in our people? Our organization? In education? At all? Do I need to take my own advice?
I don't need to go into what these "balls in the air" are, because I feel that all of you reading, have a very similar picture in your head. And what happens if one of them drops, do they all drop? Do you fall off your unicycle, do you tumble off the tight rope? Does it all come crashing down?
Some of what I do; I feel is my "job" and some of what I do; I feel is my "purpose". For me, these two things intertwine. I have decided to start expanding outside of my distrcit, outside of my role. I was just at a point, where I needed to spread my wings. It is exciting and energizing, but also has had it's bumps. In embarking on this new path, I need to keep my focus. My purpose has never been to benefit me, my puspose is ALWAYS to help move others forward. So, as I am doing these new things, my goal is to bring our district, our people, along.
My hope is that the "juice IS worth the squeeze" as my goals are to bring people together...people who would not have had that opportunity before. To help them grow, take risks, through encouragement and support. But my goals in my official role are the same, I want to support people in their professional growth, I want to help others to best engage and reach all their learners. I just need to make sure that I keep all those balls in the air, and it helps that I am working with some fabulous people who are helping me juggle, who have my back, along the way.
I know that as educators, you all are doing things "above and beyond" because that is what's best for kids. This is why I do not hesitate to do the same. I just want what is best for our educators which in turn is what's best for kids.
So I guess this post was more for me, to work through some things and here I am at the end...My conclusion is that I need to stay on this path, because I believe it is worth it. What I will need to do, is organize...prioritize and learn to lean and ask for help, a little bit more.
But whenever you are stressed, overwhelmed, waiting for the balls to drop...always go back to your purpose. Are you staying true to that? Is what you are doing, inline with it? If not, maybe it is ok to let it drop. It is always good to take stock and reflect.
What are you juggling? Please comment below.
Mother, teacher, TOSA, GCE Level 1 & 2, Encourager of others.
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